Wedding Dress Shopping...Every Girls Dream, Right?
Worse few weeks of my LIFE! Shopping for a wedding gown as a plus size girl was horrible. I mean, I know I'm larger than your average girls but I felt like a fucking whale; like I had no business getting married because only girls size 6 and under were allowed in that club.
I meant to post this some time ago but I just haven't had the chance. Anyway, I was watching Say Yes To The Dress:Big Bliss. (apparently there is a version of the show just for big girls and our big needs)While watching this show I wanted to cry all over again. I immediately went back to what it was like shopping for my stupid dress.
I went to bridal shop after bridal shop, looking for an experience like I had always seen on shows like Say Yes to The Dress. Maybe that was my problem to begin with - looking for a "fairytale" experience. Instead I was turned away from some shops because owners didn't even want to bother looking for a dress. I went to some shops where they were much nicer but I had to hold the dress out in front of me and try to imagine what it might look like. The only store, out of a good 16 I tried, that carried anything larger than a size 10 was David's Bridal.
I tried on dresses at DB and found one that fits well. NO it is NOT the "IT" dress. Its just an ivory dress. No emotional, "OMG" moment when I bought it. At that point I didn't fucking care and I still don't.
I just keep telling myself that what I'm wearing doesn't matter. Its not about the dress who cares. And while this may actually be true, its hard to buy what I'm selling.
The dress is nice. My shoes are nice. But for what I paid I wish I was in love with the damn dress. I'm a size 18 now but my dress is a size 26. Is something not wrong with that discrepancy?
-Estella
